Will it ever end or do i have to adapt

I am here at my job, my house, my friends, at the bar or a restaurant wondering how empty, low and depressed I feel. I always wonder does anyone else think the same way I do? Am I crazy? Are people thinking as frequent as I do? I am just so sad every day crying and thinking about how well this torture ever end. This is how my life going to turn out? I can’t feel emotions correctly and I constantly am depressed and dwell on every single moment in my life? Am I normal? Be so much easier if i did not have this life or this mind, it is killing me slowly. I hate this I hate my life. I hope one day I adapt and stop feeling shamed or shameful for the way I feel. For now I’m just surviving not living and for now this is my journey… sadness, anxiety and overthinking is my truth.