Clean From Self Harm

I began to feel symptoms of anxiety and depression a couple years ago. It was at its worst during the middle of my college applications but I refused to admit I needed help. I would wake up and immediately wish for the day to be over. I saw no point in working on my applications because I genuinely did not see myself living to graduation. I told myself everyday that I wasn’t worthy of life and my all consuming hatred for myself drove me to self harm.

My ex boyfriend told my mom what I was doing and I was taken to the hospital. I was diagnosed with clinical depression and generalized anxiety disorder and prescribed medication. It was at that point my mom and I made a plan for my mental health. I was pulled from school to do an outpatient program and it genuinely saved my life. Since that trip to the hospital I had 2 relapses of self harm and some ideation, but I’ve been clean from self harm for a year now and I could not be more proud of myself.