Relationship Anxiety and Finding Therapy

I never really thought I had any kind of anxiety or other problems. But after some major life changes (graduating college, starting the real world) things just felt so uncertain and unstable. I started dating an ex at the same time that the pandemic happened, quarantine, graduating, and starting my job as a nurse in a very stressful environment. The only escape I had from all this was my boyfriend who I relied on soooo much. It was toxic, I became dependent on him for any kind of happiness and we all know how that ends. Obviously he wasn’t fulfilling what I needed because it was impossible to meet. All of my anxiety came from me thinking negative things towards him and making up scenarios in my head. All of which weren’t true but felt so real to me. I also had so much built up stress from work with no way to let it go. No outlet besides him. Long story short and fast forward, we broke up because of different circumstances. A blessing in disguise.

After the initial heartache and depression from the breakup, I really began feeling like myself again doing things I wanted to do that I was happy doing. I began therapy shortly after the breakup. I wanted to start therapy mainly because I never wanted to be the person I was in that relationship with anyone else ever again. I also had no fucking idea who I was and I thought therapy would give me tools to deal with future situations in life as well as help me find myself and i was SO. Right. Go to therapy. Talk to someone who can give you an unbiased opinion on your situation. I did some fucked up shit and my therapist has never once judged me but instead put everything into perspective for me right where I need it. Therapy 10/10 recommend but you have to want it and be ready to commit to it to become the person you want to be.